Well I promised you I'd leave you alone until you were ready, but it's so hard i wanna call you and tell you how much I Love You, but I know I would just be wasting my breathe. i don't know what to do Leticia. I'm going to wait as long as I can, i really am, but I already promised to leave you alone, I Hope you got the voicemail.... This is so hard Leticia, please don't hate me forever, this is killing me inside.
You kept saying you wanted to hear the truth, and then we could move on, I knew this was too much for you Leticia, you kept saying why do I lie, why do I hurt you. I don't mean to Leticia, but I lie because I have always pictured this happening. and I was always too aftraid to face it. I don't know what to do, I'm so lost at this point in time, but i'm going to give you ur space.
We never really made it "official" that we were together Leticia, I know this is shit you don't wanna hear, but it's the truth, She came back with me yes Jan. 1, 2008. but even though she was living with me, I Promise you Leticia, NOTHING HAPPENED!! Leticia within the first week i knew i had just made the biggest mistake of my life (AGAIN). but what was I to do, I didnt wanna be responsible for her if she were to have gone back to houston and kept fucking up.... I was just covering my own ass! I'm so sorry I have done this too you. I've never stopped loving or thinking of you Leticia.
Leticia all I'm thinking of is you with him, I know I hurt you and you say it was easier to make up your mind but please don't go breaking your promises. I know you said you would have to sleep with him so he would think the baby was his but damnit Leticia, Then you wouldn't know who that baby's father would be. Cuz damnit you can't get an abortion, do you realize how serious that is? that's potentionally Evelyn's little brother or sister! How could you even consider the idea. I know you told me you would anyway, but damnit I didn't think you would go through with it. Please don't do it Leticia, hit me up for more child support if you have to but please don't abort, as fucked up as Priscilla has been her whole life, did she ever abort? and do you think she was EVER ready for a kid?.... just please think about it.
I don't know how long your gonna keep away from me, but i'm going to do this everyday until you come back into my life. I'm scared shitless but I don't know I kinda got a feeling today that in a few weeks everything will be ok. but shit I've been wrong before.
June 1st, My Love, I will be begining a new chapter of my life, and I really hope you will be there by my side embarking on whats to come for us in the future. I'm ready to give up my stupid way's, I'm ready to be your husband, I want you to be my wife, but most of all.... I want to be a family. But you say i have lost it all.... I hope thats not true.
Until you return:
I Love You, Leticia Nicole Linares .............Te Quiero Mucho!!!
Love,
Eric Rusty Munoz
Eric Rusty Munoz
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